Loved. Love. Loving.

I made this entry more than year ago in my Friendster blog. I cannot say that I am in love now as much as when I wrote this first. But I still cherish my feelings then and somehow, enjoying the feeling now. Thus, I am sharing it again….

I am so inspired the past few days. Yes, I think I am in love again. In love with work, with myself, with my God, with that special someone…

I have my share of sacrifices in the name of love. I have fallen in love a number of times already and was hurt. I know for a fact that I was somehow loved back but circumstances prevent us from continuing what we aspired to be something beautiful in the beginning. I am proud to say that I felt no bitterness or hatred towards anyone. Perhaps, I felt pain then but, thank God, I was able to move on quickly. You see, I may fall in love easily.And if my feelings were not reciprocated, I fall out just as easy.

The word Love may sound strange to some. Fortunately, I have a mindset on Love. Though, I am not claiming that my idea of Love is infallible. This happens to be an opinion of mine, nothing more! For me, Love yourself and from that overflowing love of yourself, you could love others sincerely. It is not being selfish. It is just the converse of the golden rule, “Don’t do unto others what you don’t want others do unto you.” Be complete on your own and noone will ever complete you, not even Jerry Maguire.

Loving someone is never easy. It takes two to tango. It is, for me, inspiring that same someone to love you unconditionally. Inspire but never require to be loved back. I am not good in loving. I am just trying to learn in every step of the way. I don’t mind risking again for I know it’s all worth it. God is good for allowing me this opportunity to love and be loved back, why would allow it to pass?

The world will never stop if you are happy or sad, in love or in pain. Good thing, love makes the ride worthwhile and more meaningful. I am in love, yes and words would never be enough to contain my emotions.

April 13, 2007 in Sensible Emotions

Manipulating the Truth.

Of Moth and Squid, Of Envy and Angst (The Concluding Part)

Though I do not totally guarantee, I just hope and pray that this would be the conclusion of my previous company’s continuing saga. I want this drama to come to a finale. The plot has thicken. The truth was manipulated. Unfortunately, the pervert act of the villain is perceived now to be an heroic act of loyalty. And the real lead characters’ issues were downplayed and are being labeled as simply, career fatigue.

We have all our different versions of truth. It is either we see things in different perspectives or we only believe the truth that we can accept. I refuse to offer my unsolicited comments anymore. I have no control to what would others believe in nor prevent them from speculating their versions of truth. It is time to close this chapter. This squid-looking creature may continue to squint her venom-ed ink and still think like a moth but should I care? My friend Apple made me realize that it’s a waste of my precious time.

Afterall, there is only one truth that shall prevail, and other versions shall then be called lies. When that day comes, I hope that truth would be more comforting than distracting, bring more healing than devastation.